Not getting any easier

Maybe ins wrong because the other day he said people tell him he should stand up to me... But why?? I didn't think i was like that to the point where he felt the need to "stand up" to me. We have been fighting a lot because on his days off he doesn't want anything to do with me or Tristan if he has plans but when he has nothing to do then we are good enough.at least that's how I feel. Then today I asked him to help me clean the house n he just sat there he doesn't answer me when he doesn't want to do something he ignores me instead of saying no.I just hate that and then we get in a fight over it, but I mean whodidnt see that coming. Smetimes I feel like I want to run away and never look back just me and my son thats all I need. I get to the point in this fight where I'm screaming n swearing n he said our son doesn't needto hear this it can mess him up. I said so I'm messing our son up, maybe that's why you son terrance is so messed up because today he threatened to kill someone at school. He came at me with well people tell you all the tme how wonderful I am and how I do everything for you I take care of you but I never hear you say that. I didn't respond I was so pissed off that I. Thout about what I would say and it would just kill him if I said well maybe i don't feel that way, maybe they say those things because they don't actually see you at home. But I didn't I kept my mouth shut and we haven't talked since. I just feel like i want him more then he wants me sometimes and he said I was talking about sex, no I wasn't but apparently to him I was. So I let that go too but I feel like this mirage just isn't working like it used to I have to go Tristan is crying write more later!